In these times where all seems to be taken away, remember God is there. He loves you, he cares for you, even when you don't think he's there. He's always by you side, some just refuse to accept it. They say "Well if he's here then why did he allow this to happen? Why me?" My response is that maybe something needed to change for him to get your attention. When things are ripped down and destroyed generally something much better is built up in it's place, it just takes time.
So your relationship has crumbled from your fingers. You shake your fist at the Almighty because after all he's just a kid with a mangnifying glass ready to fry you. You pray that if he'd fix things that person would talk to you, but when they don't so you do more fist shaking. How can God really care if he doesn't fix something that was unfixable in the first place? Maybe because it wasn't meant to be from the beginning.
I draw your attention to Job 35:13-14
"Indeed, God does not listen to their empty plea;
the Almighty pays no attention to it.
How much less, then, will he listen
when you say that you do not see him,
that your case is before him
and you must wait for him."
You must wait, of course he's not going to answer you right away. Have some faith you impatient fool, God knows what's best for you regardless of what you feel you need. You say you need a person who will let you down, someone to hold onto and love even if they don't reciprocate. What you really need is GOD. All will come into focus when you give your all to him. His son Jesus Christ died so that we might find life and peace in his arms. Yet for some reason we turn our backs and walk in the opposite direction, thinking we can do it on our own.
Isaiah 42:20 "You have seen many things, but have paid no attention; your ears are open, but you hear nothing."
Maybe you should start listening to the words of those who know you best. Quit trying to make ends meet on your own.
Jeremiah 17:23
"Yet they did not listen or pay attention; they were stiff-necked and would not listen or respond to discipline."
The best advice I can give is to give your all to Jesus. Give him your problems, your pains, your troubles, your good and bad times. Give him your heart, soul body and mind. You're body is the temple of God, created in his image to glory his name. Stop filling it with crap and lies and fill it with his love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness and gentleness. Drop all that is dragging you down and embrace the one who made you. All will become clear as day, your troubles will become nothing if you give it up to God.