There are so many things I want to become....I want.... I want to marry the love of my life and share every sacred moment with her. I want to have a family and be the worlds greatest dad. I want to be a success so my children can grow up in a stable environment. I want to precede my childrens children.
What a self-serving attitude eh. All I seem consumed by lately is what I want, not what I need. What I need to be doing is being content with where I'm at in life. I have all I need around me, I have a loving family, loving friends, a roof over my head and food inside me. Yet inside me I still have this drive that says, "fall in love, get married." As sure as I am the I will I can't face it right now. It feels so right but it's not time and I keep wishing it was.
One thing I do want, and it is a good want, is to be the best friend I can be to those who want to call me friend. I want to be closer to the One who made me who I am. I want to know God better than I've ever known him. I need to give my worry up to him or else I'm doomed. I can't function in life if I'm worried all the time.
Lord, I need your peace, I need your tranquility. Take my worries and my stubborn ambition to drive myself. You're the one who's in control, not I. My heart longs for what you have in store for me. Let me be what you would have of me. I give my longings to you, take them as your own I pray.
In Jesus wonderful glorious name,
Amen
