I want to say how I will be there, how I will comfort, mostly how I will wait. How can I not wait, I'd have to be foolish not to. I've been told to wait, not from just from her but from God, and I shall. The last time I was told to wait for an answer lasted 2 years. I was totally sure that she was to be the one, only with time to have a definitive 'No' happen. Her life has left on a totally different path, which looking back now wouldn't have been a good idea in the first place. But this time it's different, this time it's not just a wait and see, it's a wait and you'll be rewarded. Song of Songs 8:4 N.A.S. "Do not arouse or awaken my love until she pleases." Another version is "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." Either way it's very pointed that I need to wait for Gods timing in this. If I don't I'll fail, but I need to be extra attentive and constantly pray about it.
Until then, and if she reads this she'll know, here’s what I will be:
I will be a friend first and foremost because Love cannot function without friendship. Quite honestly most people in this world don't get that being friends is what it's all about, so she’s pretty, if you can't stand her personality then why date or marry her? I'll touch on Love further down. Friendship is one of the most important aspects to me personally. If I couldn't trust them as a friend why would I as a spouse? A true friend will stick by your side through think and thin.
I will be a comfort when she feels down or sad. Again most people don't get this either. Comforting is a major part of life, it's someone to lean on, to hug when need be, to cry with, to praise with, to have good old fashioned fun with, to dance in the rain with.
I will be patient. I have been told to be patient and I shall. Patience is well worth it in the long run as its better to know someone for a while then not at all and end up miserable. However if I wait too long it will never come to be, as it has in the past. I'd been given a go in the past but never acted on it. This time I will when it comes.
I will be truthful. Telling the truth is another big thing. If I cannot tell the truth and must always hide things then what good is that to a trusting relationship? How is she supposed to trust me if she doesn't know I'm telling the truth?
I will be kind, understanding, and I will listen. I can't stand to see guys treating their girl, wife or otherwise, like crap. I mean come on is that really what a relationship is about? Most guys don't get it that when something is wrong they need to shut the frik up and listen. And even if they do it just blows in one ear and out the next. True listening is a skill mastered with time; few have the patience to and end up with problems. Understanding comes with time as well, as you listen you learn, as you learn you understand. As for kindness, well open doors for her, make her feel like a princess or queen. Compliment her even if it isn't her best day, hold her purse if need be, give her your jacket on a cool night, stuff like that.
I will Love always. Love is an integral part of kindness and patience. You need to have an awful lot of Love to be patient for a long time. As relationships grow and mature a mutual Love for each other develops, not the worldly shallow "love" but a deep meaningful Love. Love is brought through Christ and without him how can we say we have Love?
I will keep praying. If I stop praying then there is something wrong. Not only will the relationship not come to pass, I'd kick myself for not bringing it before the Lord. Only he knows the stars names and only he will know when the time is right. All I can do is sit back, pray, and let her know that I'm waiting not just for her but also for God.
I've got my signal; it just depends on when God gives his to her.
Until next time,
Nick